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Ok, so say we are meeting face to face, over tea and crumpets to discuss, well, anything really that will keep us both interested in the conversation and each other, and allow for a civil, mature, decent conversation that will build personal integrity and permit an opportunity for developing understanding and feeling empathy. With time on our side, I begin the conversation with a monologue to give context of my state of mind, and of the adjustments to the most recent occurrences in my life…

Please note that this would not occur in real life because this is staged, and prewriten. Life doesn’t come prewriten… you write it as you go.

“The space in between thoughts… what is that? Do I even know it? Is there peace for me there? Am I at ease with the silence that presents itself in my life?

These are questions I pose myself as I sit alone. I am content. There is my answer. Also, have it known that within the spaces between thoughts there is peace and tranquility, which are both beautiful states to be in. It is also in the spaces between thoughts where you will find the answer to the most fundamental questions: ‘Who am I?’ Look intently and the answer will appear. You are that moment of no mind, the hollow between thoughts.

Drawing a comparison, to clarify my understanding of the difference between metaphysical topics and man made issues, I now ask, what about the spaces between events… what is that?

The spaces between events are also voids, yes. They can be filled with anything, or with nothing also. But if you are wheeling and dealing, playing an active role in society, then you will want to be ready for what ever may come next; mostly so you can maximize on the situation and build yourself, focusing all of your attention and energy on observing the situation and seeing what it needs, so that you can make it happen, and first too. Even if you are not wheeling and dealing, you can still be an active participant in life and be prepared as well. You can fill the time gaps, or the spaces between events with preparation. This way you are ready for the next event, and maybe even before it happens. Preparation includes all actions undertaken that makes ready for use or consideration. In preparing yourself, or ‘during the spaces between events’, you are getting out of bed, brushing your teeth, flossing (or need to be), taking a shower, getting something to eat (at any point of the spectrum, during the present era), making coffee, setting the table, deciding on what outfit to wear, remembering when was the last time you cleaned the litter box… those types of things… duties that need to be done regardless if there are any other events that are planned or not. You just prepare. When you are ready, you are ready on all planes: physically (everything is where it needs to be, and it is all there too), mentally (you feel open to life), emotionally (there are no lingering feelings that haven’t been dealt with). So, the act of preparation is inserted where there is a gap… where there is nothing. Be it “nothing to do” or just a time frame with no set activity for the moment. Where there was nothing, you put something. The nothing is still there underneath your something. It is not like the squeeze game off The Price Is Right where there are 5 numbers, you pick one of them, Bob Barker pulls it out of the sequence and then the remaining numbers squeeze together to form a new 4-digit number. Well when you put something where there is nothing, and then you remove that something… you will not squeeze out the nothing; it will still be there. You can plan your earth time and fill the space between events, such as with preparation, which will leave you ready for whatever occurrence comes next… but there will always be a nothing there, underneath that something. And this is golden… the nothing is where the treasure is. Let it happen. Let nothing happen. Feel the fear, live through it, and come out on the other side.”

Do you have anything you would like to add here?

“Making the link, can you see the difference in the two topics I wrote about above? One is of unlimited origin and infinite endings… the space between thoughts. It is forever, eternal. The other topic, the space between events refers to a man made concern… a planned, contrived and twisted turn of events all collaborated with a common selfish goal in mind… to build one’s identity: The Ego. Know this before you head out somewhere, and you will be on the lookout for other people’s motives, which can ONLY guide you toward yourself to discover YOUR innermost motives. WHY DO YOU DO THE THINGS YOU DO? WHY DO YOU GO TO THE PLACES YOU GO? WHY DO YOU STAY WITH THE PEOPLE YOU ARE WITH? WHY DO YOU CHOOSE THIS OVER THAT?”

These questions are all about one’s self. They are there to guide you to delve deep into your own existence… to examine your behavior and to understand your communication as a human being, to bring forth the joy in life. What are you truly saying? You want to know the truth? Seek someone who will give you the Truth. Remember, you will know it is Truth if it disturbs you, if it makes you uncomfortable and you don’t like what it says because it stirs something up in you. Don’t fear what you do not want to hear. QUESTION YOURSELF: Why do I not want to hear it? ANSWER: I don’t want it to destroy a picture or idea I have of myself that I cherish and spent so long creating and building and…”

Get it? It is all in vain.

This is interjection time. If you have any questions or comments, now is your time to shine…

Otherwise, I can continue on…

“What about life? What about natural events? Isn’t life a sequence of natural and spontaneous events? As the grinch says, “so desensitized by television these days”, when life hits someone square in the face, they immediately blame because they are poorly developed, and do not know to take responsibility for all that happens to them. They do not know they hold that power… they are asleep spiritually. Their creative spirit lay dormant and they know not of the mystic path… the ability to create your life’s path one step at a time, one decision at a time… one vision at a time.

This subject is dead. Do you have anything you would like to add? Now is your time.

“Moving on, the only thing that could ever matter is your reaction… to anything and everything. That is the real reason why things happen to us, to allow us game territory to figure ourselves out, to play the field with ourselves in getting to choose what works for us best.”

QUESTION TO POSE YOURSELF BEFORE UNDERTAKING YOUR CREATIVE STEP:

“Where do I want to take this? What do I really want to say? Am I trying to convey a message, feeling, belief? Am I just regurgitating my comprehension of this writing? Do I just want to be creative, and go with the flow… see where it leads me… What can I bring to this part of the production to make it original, to make it even more creative, or to add an innovative touch to it? What can be done to increase the power of this project? Can something accompany it to support or extend the message or meaning?”

Note: There is a difference between spontaneity and impulsiveness.

Another Note: Oh, and what is success to me? Success to me is achieving your goals. Therefore, setting a goal, achieving the goal, and being successful in that. Success holding a secret and deep inner knowing about your Self and combining it a bit with a feeling of achievement. It is about feeling valid, useful and intelligent, as well as knowing yourself well enough to estimate your abilities accurately by setting goals you achieve, and that allow you to be successful. Now there are many ways this piece on success could go*. It is up to you though, what is success for YOU?

*In today’s society, a fundamental and probably unconscious belief is that we humans are useful… that we are tools. Are we slaves? That depends on what the outcome of our action is. Though, we are masters of action and do, do, do is what we do. That is what we are, doers. This is the state of affairs today. Imagine it is the other way around for a moment. Imagine we are thinkers who know how to be, both with ourself and others. How would this change the world? How would this change affect you? And how would this change you? Or would it? Do you consider yourself a doer or a thinker? Why? What are the most recurring actions if you are a doer, or thoughts if you are a thinker?

Dance And Hits

Music works for me when I am faced with silence… until I eat the void.

A great teacher, mystic and enlightened man, Vernon Howard knows the truth. He writes it so clearly, plain and simple.

“Don’t wander from the safety zone of Now. During your day, observe how your mind slips  backward to yesterday and forward to tomorrow. Catch it. Pull it back. Pull it back to where it belongs – in the here and Now.”

My question now is, now that I am in the Now, what do I do now?

Marriage

It’s all about marriage right now… for many.

What does a marriage mean? Is it real? Does last as long as you want it to? All these questions, and no answers. I know that marriage for me means nothing… for two reasons. One, I am not married so I don’t have any concept of what it entails; and two, my parents were divorced when I was just a girl. These are the facts. Crude and true.

I was asked to return to Egypt to marry a young Ali. I accepted. Now I have changed my mind and decided not to go.

Also I find myself being more and more attracted to men in relationships or married men. Whore.

As for my brother Neil and his wife Crystal.. something fell apart between them; now they are separated. They were newly weds.

Marriage… what is it really?

What is happening to the honor, the trust, and all of the other fundamental pillars of a relationship? Is it the day and age? Is it the people? Could it be the beliefs of the individual? What is it?

Feelings

I finally get it. It all comes down to feelings… and living them out fully. I have been listening to Gregg Braden, author and speaker, on You Tube. He has very interesting points and speaks about the traditions of the indigenous people. He talks a bit about technology and its place in evolving human consciousness. He also speaks about feelings. He mentions that it is important to not want things… but rather to feel as though it has already happened. Here are two You Tube videos of Gregg Braden…

 

 

 

I just realized that when people want things, it is not the thing that they truly want. It is actually the feeling they get when they get what they want. This is what Gregg Braden is saying. His lectures stress this and he indicates throughout his interviews that it is our feelings that create our life experience. This is true.

Feelings are the only things that are identical in experience from one person to another. Happiness is happiness, no matter who is experiencing it. Same for anger. Anger is anger regardless of who you are. The only things that differentiates from person to person is their reaction to the feeling. A person’s actions when experiencing happiness or any other feeling, is personal.

Here is a list of some possible feelings. I have put this together because my exercise is to identify other people’s feelings to better communicate and relate to them…

open:

kind

confident

reliable

easy

amazed

free

sympathetic

interested:

satisfied

receptive

accepting

understanding

happy

great

gay

joyous

lucky

fortunate

delighted

overjoyed

gleeful

thankful

important

festive ecstatic

satisfied

glad

cheerful

sunny

merry

elated

jubilant

alive:

playful

courageous

energetic

liberated

optimistic

provocative

impulsive

free

frisky

animated

spirited

free

wonderful

good:

calm

peaceful

as ease

comfortable

pleased

encouraged

clever

surprised

content

quiet

certain

relaxed

serene

bright

blessed

reassured

love:

considerate

affectionate

sensitive

tender

devoted

attractive

passionate

admiration

warm

touched

sympathy

close

drawn toward

interested:

concerned

affected

fascinated

intrigued

absorbed

inquisitive

nosy

snoopy

engrossed

curious

positive

eager

keen

earnest

intent

inspired

determined

excited

enthusiastic

bold

brave

daring

challenged

re-enforced

confident

hopeful

strong:

sure

certain

rebellious

unique

dynamic

tenacious

hardy

secure

I cut and pasted this list from a site I found on Google. There is also a list of negative feelings… let’s just stick to the positive ones for now.

Wanting

Wanting events to happen, doesn’t make them happen. When events are out of your control, question your desires instead. Getting upset that things are not going as you want does not make for a pleasant experience. We are not meant to be unhappy.

The State Of Love

You cannot be in love with anything or anyone. Love is not something that you get from things or people. Love is not something you attain. You cannot get love.

Love is a state. You simply are in a state of love, or you are not. Just like you are either happy or you are not. It is one or the other.

When you are living in a state of love you are living your natural truth. Essentially, you are love. This is what makes it feel so good, so right. Being in love is exactly that… being in Love.

It doesn’t matter what comes up in your life, easily go with the flow of whatever is happening. Don’t react as if this or that shouldn’t be happening. Act instead. Act consciously too. For example, watch your inner turmoil begin as you choose to simply watch and allow the event, for whatever it may be. Feel the essence of what is really there instead. Leave spaces empty and watch how uncomfortable you will begin to feel. Inside you will meet your fear, a ripping or tearing… let it be. Go through it. Feel it completely. Don’t fight it, just live it through. See the difference in you. Know the power you hold. Your impulse to fill a void has been subsided and your fear of living has now died. Now you are truly living.

Feel whatever is there. Use your senses to stay connected to your life. Forget about your memories and thoughts. Forget about trying to figure things out. Forget about it all.

Instead… pay attention. See the opportunities as they arise. Simply watch. Know what is available to you at all times. Know the moment it appears. Your life is beginning to change in this instant because you are changing. You are changing who you are by allowing life to happen as it wishes.

The only control you need is the control you have over your self. Being in control is having power. Use this power to become an enlightened person. Observe yourself… from the movements you make to the expression on your face. Know what you are doing the moment you are doing it. Become aware of yourself. Know that you are in a room, know that you are sitting, or standing. Feel your body, feel your presence.

Don’t ever get discouraged. That is resistance. Simply realize that this moment is new, and so are you. Begin anew.

MobileMe Account Closed

Through Apple I had a MobileMe account and was able to set up second website. Now I have cancelled the account and the site is no longer available.

Quoting Vernon Howard

The present moment is all there is; there isn’t anything else. Reality is whatever thought, or feeling, or event we experience now. We may think about an unhappy past or hopeful future, but we think about them now. Yesterday and tomorrow do not exist except as this moment’s memory, or anticipation. To try to live in them creates illusion and conflict. Happiness is  truly now or never.

“Life is to be enjoyed, get back to your senses.” Leia Blake

Again… Dance…

I will see what I can do about finding a way to get these mixes available to you… Again and Dance.

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